Traumatic Tears and The Fear

Tired, anxious, scared, protective, overwhelmed. Just some of the words that describe how I’m feeling after last night. The day started off so well- perhaps too well. She was so smiley and chatty in bed in the morning, napped for hours with me, was gurgling and goo-ing on our walk, ate well, the whole shebang. I’d […]

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Rainy days

What is going on with the weather at the moment? It’s gone from blazing 34 degree heat, to dark, damp and downright miserable. I’m not going to lie, now that I have a baby, I prefer this weather to the scorching burn-worthy fire pit that was last week, but it’s bloody confusing given that it’s […]

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Conclusions on a week solo-parenting

Things I have realised this week: I CAN do it myself – it’s just a lot bloody easier and nicer with F here. I am really proud of myself. Not only have I kept O alive and happy, I have managed to give her her vitamin drops every evening, break my phone and get it […]

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In the interest of honesty… is racism still prevalent in Berlin?

Debating whether to write this, but decided that in the interest of honesty, I had to. F is in Berlin on a work trip with his company. O and I had a really rough night last night. O’s temperature flared up so I was sorting Calpol at 3.30am, trying to cool her down, and changing […]

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A jab to the heart…

Just got home from O’s vaccinations. It. was. AWFUL. She SCREAMED until she couldn’t breathe and I’ve never seen her scream like that, through pure pain. She had 3 injections and 1 administered orally, including the meningitis B one which will make her feverish according to the nurse (greeeeat). As soon as the kind nurse […]

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1 week solo-parenting with 8 week old…

Apprehensive is an understatement. F went to Berlin last night for a work trip for a whole week!!!! So it’s just the bean sprout and I. He is so sad to leave, I feel really sorry for him.. I reminded him (when I was a bit mad about him going) that a week is an […]

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Bloody boiling

Well, it is BLOODY boiling and has been for a few days. I’m not complaining.. although my hayfever is through the roof and no pharmacy will give me any tablets on account of my breastfeeding- nasal spray and eye drops won’t do, I need the hard stuff to kick this to the curb.. but it […]

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A really GOOD day.

I’ve just had the NICEST day. I don’t even know why really, it’s just been generally lovely. I’m going to write about it so that I don’t forget it and can remind myself when I’m ratty and stroppy. To be honest, the day didn’t start off that well.. Little One was up at 3, then […]

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Country Fair in the City

A country girl through and through, I’m not ashamed to admit that when I read that the common by our house was to be transformed into a country fairground this June, my levels of excitement not only reached, but went well above those deemed cool or generally acceptable for a 23 year old. My day […]

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The Twilight Zone

I’m at a funny age. My 23rd birthday this year wasn’t a big thing- partly because I was 9 months pregnant and had just had the most amazing baby shower that I felt couldn’t be topped, but mostly because it’s sort of a ‘non-age’. It’s lost the excitement of turning 20 and 21, and it’s […]

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